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Friendship

Growing up, there were several things that Dennis and I would say or do when we got together. Around the first of July we would drive into Ohio to buy fireworks. We would do Donut Drops to local hospitals, to be freindly with the ER staff, just so they would look out for us should our night not go as planned. We would sing the "power window" song as we played with the power windows. We would scream at the top of our lungs to startle each other or whoever else was around, justifying it as a tension breaker. We would debate complex philosophic or temporal-spatial theories we made up. Mostly, we would bitch about our parents.

Our favorite line as we got into the car at the beginning of the evening was, "Parents are great, everyone should have ONE." Then we would launch into tirade after diatribe about what our parents had done to piss us off that day/week/whatever.

I bring this up because I have recently found myself to be without parents. It is both through no fault of my own and entirely my decision. Either way, they seem fine about it. I am not exactly ready to talk about this yet, but I have accepted a good friends offer to adopt me, and she has diligently filled out all of the paperwork and provided me with letters of reference. I have not given her an answer yet, mostly because I have not had the best experience with parents, and I don't think I am ready to try again.

Whenever I have had a problem with parents, I have always been able to console myself by turning to my friends. With my busy work and home schedule, friends have been in short supply for a while, and I can not bring myself to sacrifice a friend to get another parent. Most people describe their ideal relationship with their parents by describing them as their best friend. Given my record with parents, I'd rather stick with the best friend I've already got.

Linda, I appreciate the time and energy that was put into your application, but you already have a significant role in my life, and I don't want you to overextend yourself. I will still gladly agree to the terms of your dinners and updates and conversations and everything else. Because you're my friend.

20:00 - 14 July 2005

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