amazngj's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- My Wishlist With only 20 hours remaining until the anniversary of my birth, I have decided to make my wishlist, both idealistic and materialistic. 1. I wish for Liz to be happy and healthy. This pregnancy has been rough on her, and her illnesses being replaced with pains and aches and cramps and different forms and kinds of illnesses. She deserves healthy, happy carefree days and long rest-filled nights. 2. I want more halloween decorations. Good ones that survive the season and survive being boxed up in the off season. 3. I wish for Tom to be happy. It hardly matters how proud anyone else is of him, I want him to be proud of himself. I've been proud of everything I've ever seen him do. From pantomiming a cleaning task in the background of a musical to getting a 100% secret shop at work, (yes, I've told everyone at work) I am always proud of how well he does whatever he sets his mind to. But I know that he wants to be doing something more, something different, something that he appreciates. I wish for Tom to see himself the way I see him. 4. Those Terry Pratchet books sound interesting. I think I'd like to borrow those. 5. I wish for my mother to find acceptance. Of herself, of her life, of her children. When someone is doing something that she wouldn't want to do, she feels that they shouldn't do it either. She actually takes it personally if she is close to that person. I wish for her to find healthier outlets for her depression than trying to force it onto others as if it should be theirs. 6. The new Lucas Arts game with Indiana Jones looks really cool. I haven't been able to download it yet, but I love those action adventure puzzle twist story games. I have the best memories of Maniac Mansion, Day of the Tentacle, the first two Indiana Jones games, and all the monkey island games. Tom and I spending days, weeks, monthes, trying to solve the problems, call the 900 number tip lines without getting caught, and cheating without Tom knowing about it so that he would think I was so clever. 7. I wish I spent more time getting to know my grandparents. Even my surviving grandparents, I feel like I'm wasting the little time I have left talking to much about me and not enough about them. I'm going to work on that. 8. Our entertainment center has seen better days. First purchased in 1996 (June), it has had 7 different addresses including two different storage facilities. Its been up and down at least ten staircases, has housed three different televisions, five different VCRs, two stereos, one DVD player and more cable boxes and satelite receivers than anyone should ever have. It's fallen apart, and ready to retire. I don't know if it would even survive another shuffle across the room because I feel like rearranging again. 9. I wish i had more time. With me working an average of a 55 hour work week, I am left with only 113 hours. I spend 45 minutes driving each way to work, five days a week, taking away another seven and a half hours, leaving me with 105.5 hours. I get about seven hours of sleep each night, and now I only have 56.5 hours left of actual awake time. When you subtract out the time I waste getting out of bed, showering, shaving and dressing, changing, going to the bathroom and feeding and taking out the dogs, I'm probably close to fifty hours left each week. I spend an hour each week paying the bills and balancing the checkbook. 49. I also tape an astonishing 13 hours of TV each week, being that I work nights, and I still find time to watch that. 39. I probably spend abou half and hour a day on the computer, checking my mail, playing chess or typing in or reading up on journals, so I am left with about 36 hours each week, assuming I don't have to work and extra day, or go in early, or end up there later. That time is all the time I get to spend with Liz, and still squeeze in some time just for me. I'd also like to see her parents once a week, and maybe even find time for a social life in there too. I'm actually surprised I have that many hours left, I think I waste to many of them. I feel like I am booked solid five days a week and that my only free time is on my days off but maybe I could budget those free hours better. I'm going to work on that too. 10. DVDs. I want all the Disney classic animated movies on DVD. Right now I have Beauty and the Beast, the Lion King, Lilo and Stitch, and Winnie the Pooh. I want the rest. I also want the rest of Friends and Mad About You and Coupling and 24. I have the first season of all of those and I happen to have seasons two and three of Friends. Have they come out with Family Ties on DVD yet? 11. Money. I don't need to win the lottery, it would just be easier to pay the bills if there were less of them. I don't need to stop working, I'd just like to get out of debt so that I was only paying for living expenses not old already lived and died expenses. 12. Overall, I am very happy with what I have and who I am. My happiness is not at all dependant upon any of the material things in my life. My happiness is dependant only on the happiness of the people around me. The thirtysix waking hours a week that I get to spend with Liz, I want to make her happy in that time, because when she's happy, I am happy knowing that she is happy. I worry about my friends and family, especially Tom. I won't be happy if they aren't happy, especially if I possess the power to make them happier (through, say, providing them with a better environment to live, for example). In conclusion, my wish is for everybody to get happy, stay happy, and let me know if I can help you to be happy. Everything else is meaningless unless accompanied by happiness. Have a great day.02:30 - 21 October 2003 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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